shining so bright.

2011-11-14T03:12:00.000+08:00

To USA! :D :D

2011-10-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

woah haven't blogged in a long time...

was reading through old posts and had a sudden surge of emotions... reminded me of how much i've grown throughout the past 4 years.

and not too long later, i'll be graduating already! ):

realised that farewell is this week, and have started to think about a lot of things...

hmm... its time to move on.

PGA memoirs

2011-08-21T01:07:00.002+08:00

Sudden surge of emotions after finishing our montage for our PGA journey... Although it has only been 3 months since we first started on this journey officially, but the preparation has dated back to almost a 14 months ago.

I miss all the times we trained together for Pioneer, and remember all the insecrurities that we had -- always missing the 15 minute mark by around 2 minutes. And then we finally realised that all our worries were unfounded because at the end of it we could finish everything in about 10 minutes, way before the time limit.

I miss our interview preparation sessions, all the presentations and sharing that we did. I remember the crying part T_T, quite vividly too. I remember our scarier - than - actual mock interviews, and the repeated questions (World Centres!!) And how we overcame the fear eventually...?

I miss our interview! I remember how I was trying to find Ashley but she wasn't there and how we waited for 9 hours to get to my interview! Remember talking to Joceline and Ashley for the last 30 minutes while we waited for our last 3 interviews... I remember people crying when they came out, and how I told myself that it was all a psychological game and they just wanted to see if I could take the stress. I remember feeling very good after the interview because I was asked about World Centres again! xD And feeling good for thanking Mrs Peter for her time.

I miss preparing for P&O camp, all the stressful times when I doubted myself and felt so awkward. All the busy but productive times I spent writing proposals. All the long long 54 page proposals that we read and scared ourselves. The one late nighter (actually morning) staying up till 8AM chionging proposal. The weird recipe and all the food wasted during prep session that broke my heart. The last minute change in recipe.

I miss P&O camp the most! I like all the times we had a good laugh (which was almost the entire camp!), especially COH, when we were being praised by Ms Ng xDD And during the activities when we slacked, or helped each other, or talked to the campers. Campfire was memorable, my feet were dying when we went back. I remember icing our smelly feet! Heh. And of course my nosebleed after standing in the sun for 6 hours straight! I remember feeling really sad and scared because I was told that I might fail... The super late night supper at 2AM with spaghetti, banana crumble, salad, and even leftover breakfast... Watching the red night sky trying to see the red moon, wearing our ponchos waiting for instructions. Listening to Mae singing her weird songs. Teasing Jia Chee's friends and family and Project 5G, lighting kerosene lamps etc etc... Lovely memories I will never forget.

I remember BP test, all the panicking trying to finish our products, some people skipping lunch to finish up. Xin Hui's computer being mean and crashing on her, Joceline's pretty game board... And of course Mrs Mas' very inspirational words of advice... "Guiding is a way of life, not just a CCA", "Guiding is non-formal education", "Guiding prepares us to be mothers of tomorrow".

I look forward to our badge ceremony where we can see everyone again, and look at our lovely designed programme booklet. And of course the Istana ceremony when we get to see the new President!

I MISS PGA. <3

2011-08-16T20:27:00.003+08:00

why is it that only one person hasnt improved
why so self delusional.

2011-08-12T22:14:00.002+08:00

was really happy yesterday after reading some nice encouraging words.
not sure if they were meant for me, but i appreciate them a lot.

but then today my mood is all spoiled again thanks to some other unappreciative person.

lack of reflection leads us to blindness.

worthy.

2011-08-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

one of the rare times that i start to doubt everything that i have done/am doing and wondering about its worth...

maybe i stop to question myself too little, but somehow i never really thought about how baseless my own beliefs are; and now the cracks are showing.

its really terrible when i start to lose sight of the purpose of everything i do.

have been wondering if all my personal sacrifices were worth it, if anyone noticed them and appreciated them; or if they were just taken for granted-- something that is expected of me.

yes, i know duty calls. but why is it that some people can put down everything, all their responsibilities to enjoy themselves, but i'm so tied to them that i can't even do anything for myself?

for once, i thought maybe i should leave all this burden behind, and walk away from it. but yet in the end i still decide to walk back, and carry it with me.

i do realise that the likelihood of anyone noticing that i'm picking up this burden for them is close to zero. i don't understand how this became a burden in the first place. it was never for me, but to others it was. and then slowly it became one for me, just because others thought so.

its horrid when something close to you heart is mocked at and belittled, and yet you can do nothing about it.

when people don't bother, and you continue to do what you believe in... its really tiring.

and then doubt creeps in, and i don't know why i'm doing what i'm doing anymore.

i really really hope all my time and effort is worthwhile.

rants... o_O

2011-07-18T13:50:00.004+08:00

Haha, okay I decided to post since I can't bring myself to write zuowen and I have free time...

Had a super long talk with pup last night about education and meritocracy (LA panel discussion stuff -- being very intellectual here xD) and then it evolved into some life story sharing session thing! Kind of understand why our family believes so much in education and meritocracy... kind of just passed on through the years from 爷爷. Makes me value all my chances so much more because other people "fought hard" for these chances for me. (:

Ahh, I love talks like this which makes me feel like I'm so lucky and loved :D :D

Anyway, I realised that I cannot remember what I wanted to write a few days ago so this shall just be random things I think about.

Haha okay I shall write about PGA cos I have so much to say about it... Hmm somehow it feels like I just understood why I do what I do and now its over. O: Its like when I finally know the purpose of all these things we do, I'm out of here... Something like... nirvana? Hahaha, its some kind of personal learning journey thing that you can't even pass on cos... its personal. And everyone has to go through it to fully understand. Not something that can be just expressed like that. Ahh being very abstract now. Hmm maybe like some one way track thing. When you reach the end you can't turn back and tell others because you have to continue moving on to the next track? Okay actually not so much of cannot tell, but its probably more like everyone will get to it anyway. Ahh this is convoluting.

Ah okay yes, I remember something about tumblr that I wanted to say. I realised that a lot of people actually post/reblog the same things... Which makes me feel like everyone has the same kind of thinking/feelings... Haha okay honest opinion: I don't believe in tumblr because I think most of the things there meant to comfort people end up inflating their egos. Haha more on social media and self-centredness later. Ahh its really difficult trying to understand certain kinds of human behaviour. Seriously, I think I need to take psychology or something this is really frustrating. Defence mechanism maybe? Ahh, things I wonder about without ever reaching a conclusion...

Okay back to social media and self-centeredness... I want to read that compre article! D:< Haha okay so another personal belief: people are getting more and more self centered. Me included of course xD Somehow it seems like everyone is becoming really selfish... (Disclaimer: this is totally a generalisation okay, not some personal attack thing) I think we are all becoming very concerned over ourselves... and thinking that we are the center of the universe. Obviously not the case. [Lol sidenote I think I need to start some blog to post all my random thoughts like this!]

So, conclusion 1: we are self absorbed because social media encourages us to be. Reason being, we have profiles and updates which we expect people to read and want to know. Which sadly may not necessarily be the case. And since we only see what people write on our wall, or tweet to us, we think that all the attention is on us -- and we don't bother trying to find out that this is also not true. Cos all these people have other friends and we're just blind to that part.

Conclusion 2: Social media makes us more "confident" = boosts our egos to no end. We have profiles and all that avatar things which let us present ourselves in any way we like. Very probably the way that we think best showcases ourselves, and not best represent ourselves. So of course we omit all the flaws and maybe dirty little secrets that we don't want people to know. And then we all feel really happy and confident hiding behind this facade. And we actually think that we pull it off quite well. Uh self delusion again.

Haha okay this makes me look like I'm totally against social media. Not the case, by the way. I use it a lot (considerably to... my parents? not as much as some people though). Haha I used to use it to express myself freely to the entire world, without actually thinking of consequences... I mean consequences as in who reads what I write. It used to be fun, but I think now that I'm not so comfortable with sharng my personal life with everyone who can get access to the internet. Personal life does not equate to my thoughts and opinions so yah different from what I'm doing now. Which is why I love all the private functions of social media where only my friends can see what I am doing. But even so, I realised that the friends I have on facebook are not exactly people who I will tell everything to. Not all of them at least. So even then friends have to be added seriously... O: And I have to constantly think of who can read what I write before I do anything... Too much trouble lah.

Haha okay this is ironic I said sharing my opinions is not my personal life but it seems to be. Because through this post its possible to know what kind of beliefs I have, and maybe even guess what kind of person I am.

Haha oh my I just realised how much I have written.

Okay due to my short term memory I forgot once again what I wanted to say.
Whatever here ends my post.
kthxbye. (:

2011-07-14T22:33:00.003+08:00

"我们一直被时间推着向前走，在不同的人身边停留，再也回不了头。"

Yes, I agree wholeheartedly. (:

Ahh, I was in the ranty mood a while ago, but I lost it after writing so much for reflections...

Maybe I'll just keep my thoughts till another time and have a collective post. (:

2011-07-11T20:01:00.001+08:00

horrible day!!!! D:

kept seeing people i didnt want to see...
and chi was bleeeeehhhhhh. ):

2011-07-10T15:00:00.002+08:00

too many times i log in to blogger wanting to rant and closing it after staring at the page for a while...

i think we're all becoming too similar...
difference becomes awkwardness.

2011-07-10T02:05:00.000+08:00

don't know what i'm feeling these days...

2011-07-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

schools need to nurture the passion for learning and life.

2011-06-06T00:12:00.001+08:00

life's tough, but i'm tougher.

2011-06-04T22:18:00.001+08:00

i want to be more confident.

but i dont want to be over confident because i dont like over confident people. O:

2011-05-19T16:59:00.001+08:00

maybe if i started worse people would appreciate what i've done more.

2011-05-18T23:26:00.001+08:00

uncooperative people = my life is miserable D:

2011-05-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

Wow.

Haven't logged in to blogger in a long time...

Other than being really hyped up about the coming elections (long story.__.) and spending all my time watching rallies (live and videos), reading articles, and thinking about Singapore's politics, I've been trying to keep up with school work...

Honestly, the amount of school work is very unevenly spread out. D: There are days where we have absolutely nothing to do, and days where every single lesson has a quiz/presentation etc. I'm still trying to adjust to this system, because its very odd to feel super free on some days and super busy and crazy on the rest.

The past few weeks have been sort of an emotional roller coaster -- sometimes getting very very stressed out halfway during lessons for no reason, and sometimes going super crazy and high during lessons with no reason as well. Regardless, life has been pretty fun with more time freed up compared with last year and I'm feeling A LOT more at peace with myself.

I really have no idea why, but it seems like I reached some sort of... self realisation/nirvana xD
Maybe after going through too many repetitions of similar events, I start to accept that's how things work. Some things cannot be changed, I have my own limits. Seems like its starting to work since I feel more... okay with a lot of things. I guess its just live and let live, go with the flow and be less uptight. It's so much easier and happier :D

Anywayyyyyy... LA Panel Discussion tomorrow, and as usual my group will do it free style because we can't be bothered to plan and we always make things more fun by doing impromtu.

Flexibility is surprisingly fun. :D

AH wtv, NIGHT.

2011-04-23T16:14:00.001+08:00

have been stuck in the house for too long!

i am dying to go out and walk, and shop shop shop shop shop...

but i have no money T_T

so instead i might decide to bake cos there are tons of baking stuff in the kitchen and it will continue to rot there if i dont do anything...

2011-04-18T22:19:00.001+08:00

sleeping at 3.40 was a bad mistake. D:

never going to do that again. T_T

dead tired now. lucky i finished my work alr if not i'll be dying D:

2011-04-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

mad awesome party!!! #410tweetcrew is really really awesome :D

2011-04-13T20:47:00.002+08:00

we all need to reflect more.

sometimes we speak too fast and forget to think.

words, once said, cannot be taken back.

2011-04-10T22:57:00.003+08:00

back after a long time~

haha centenary celebrations yesterday. some... unreasonable stuff happened. which i really cannot be bothered to repeat the story for the 5th time...

anyway! had nice batch lunch at pastamania and drank gongcha! but now i'm quite broke T_T spent all my money on thursday at clementi with xinhui xD and cos we ate so much our stomachs were bursting, so we went to walk walk! and of course sit down and talk at some secret place xD

talked to chagiya and daphne about... a lot of stuff O: and there were a lot of... conclusions. anyway, i shall learn to care less about some stuff and don't let it bother me if not i'll be the one suffering anyway.

and sms chats with chagiya! uhm more conclusions + pretend to be counsellor ._______.
haha i hope it works cos if not i really dont know what to do.

actually, i think we used to be like that also. but when we look back its so bo liao xD
there's nothing much we can do but to wait for maturity to strike. :D

okay rant over. need to do stuff. slacked the whole weekend away. D:

2011-03-08T19:53:00.002+08:00

deleting long ago posts from a long time in a long time...

never really belived in deleting posts that i have written until about recently.

saying goodbye to my ranty tumblr acc feels good actually...

2011-02-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

gosh, i realised fanfics nowadays are really wrong T_T

that's what you get when you stop reading fanfics for a long time... -___-

2011-02-22T22:52:00.001+08:00

happy world thinking day! (:

i hope everyone had fun today :D

will post thoughts on tdp sometime later~

2011-02-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUP :D

2011-02-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

heh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM SOO HYUN xD

super talented actor~ whoooooo dream high is awesome cos of samdong :3

2011-02-10T20:35:00.001+08:00

heh, saw this interesting quote:
"It's one of nature's way that we often feel closer to distant generations than to the generation immediately preceding us." ~Igor Stravinsky

:D

2011-01-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

betrayed.

nothing can describe how much anger there is now.

thanks for just making everyone hate life. -___-

for venting purposes

2011-01-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Too many frustrations that I can't even name them all. D:

chiong + hiong...?

2011-01-26T23:31:00.003+08:00

Quick quick quick update before I go to bed~

It's one of those rare times where I finish my work so early into the night T_T
I can't believe that I'm the only one left awake now... Its 11.40 -___-
We used to sleep at 2...?
Heh, no wonder I'm so grumpy/crazy these days. Lack of sleep = tremendous mood swings.

This week has been a very sad week! Because of our homelearning day (in which I spent all my time watching Dream High), we had a huge stack of homework~ And the effects of it was only felt last night because most of them were due today. As such, today was a "master sleeping with your eys open" day. I promise I will do my homework earlier and not spend all my time on dramas. D:

I've been a "good" girl this week, or rather, these few days because I'm not watching dramas as I would like. ITS TORTUROUS D: No Xia Yi Zhan Xing Fu, no My Princess, no Dream High... The weekends better come quickly...

then it'll be...
SHOPPING DATE! :D

2011-01-23T23:10:00.002+08:00

if we're supposed to do elearning stuff because we're missing lessons, then we shouldn't do the homework for subjects that don't have lessons on monday! :D

2011-01-18T18:51:00.001+08:00

LOL, I tried posting the preview but then it looks uh... wrong. T_T

Anyway, it shall last me till tomorrow!! :D

2011-01-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty sure by the end of this year I'll bid goodbye to this blog and jump over to some other site...

마이프린세스

2011-01-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

It's too torturous to wait for new episodes~~~

Wednesday! Please come soon although I have third lang~ I want to watch 마이프린세스!!! :D

I need many many doses of 이설공주&박해영 to keep me going through the week! :3

Saturdays and Sundays are now officially torture days with no dramas to watch and homework to do... D:

I NEED MY PREVIEWS D:

2011-01-16T19:04:00.001+08:00

Honestly do not understand how people can not do anything and then ask me why we are not done yet.

2011-01-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

Pre-Sec 4 depression?

I can't believe I'm having that heavy feeling in me already. It has only been 2 days of school. D:

Feel super dead and tired. ESP JAP TODAY WAS T_T, who is the teacher??? Aye, all the no more spoonfeeding things she said in PURE JAP (no more english translations forever???) translated to "You all can just go screw your O's." for me. D: Countless FML moments today, which is the first time I'm using this acronym (so vulgar) but it was the only apt thing today~

I'm totally worried for all my languages now. I really hope to start gaining momentum and stop feeling dread and weariness.

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

It's only the beginning!

mixed.

2011-01-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

Have been having very mixed emotions lately... Hmm, I honestly have no idea how to express everything in words.

The last bit of the holidays were really rotting + doing a little bit of work which I kept all the way till the end + fearing school reopening + feeling all the bitterness of certain issues + being very sensitive to things that people say.

Maybe I'm really just very hesistant about school. I think I'm starting to become very... quick to judge about many things.

Have been wanting to do my new year's post for a few days now, but all the frustrating things ~~were~~ are still bombarding my head. So I've left it till now, though its probably not the best time.

At least I think I found an answer to a question that has been bugging me since Sec 2. I'm probably bottling up too many things.

Don't think I'm going to explicitly explain anything here, so quotes to show my current state of mind:

Maybe you don't like your job, maybe you didn't get enough sleep, well nobody likes their job, nobody got enough sleep. Maybe you just had the worst day of your life, but you know, there's no escape, there's no excuse, so just suck up and be nice. ~Ani Difranco [This is a very apt quote! I wish I can tell myself this everytime of the day.]

The reward for conformity was that everyone liked you except yourself. ~Rita Mae Brown, Venus Envy

Doubt is healthy. It tests one's convictions. ~From the movie Haunted

One who walks in another's tracks leaves no footprints. ~Proverb

Before you can break out of prison, you must first realize you're locked up. ~Author Unknown

There are days when solitude is a heady wine that intoxicates you with freedom, others when it is a bitter tonic, and still others when it is a poison that makes you beat your head against the wall. ~Colette

When the superficial wearies me, it wearies me so much that I need an abyss in order to rest. ~Antonio Porchia, Voces, 1943, translated from Spanish by W.S. Merwin

Solitude shows us what should be; society shows us what we are. ~Robert Cecil

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./edited (Perhaps not such a good idea to write things here. Hopefully it'll be sorted out soon.)

I will just continue sorting my thoughts out.
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OKAY! And for my conclusion for 2010 and goals for 2011!

2010 was indeed a very rushed year!

First term passed really quickly with all the preparation of SIYST, and concluded with OBS! Which was really an amazing journey, thanks to all from BATTUTA!

Term 2... was all BTs? Hah, I can't remember anymore! There has been too many things on my mind lately. But it was pretty good I guess, results and all.

Term 3 was very memorable! Shanghai trip was fun! Made soooo many new friends from all over the world~ FC selections, elections were... nervewrecking, but passed eventually. Stressing over EOYs yet not preparing -____-

Term 4 went over really quickly. EOYs, and then off to BEIJING! GCP was super fun!!! Love shopping there and having lessons with them!~

Came back, prepared for ATC.

AND ATC WAS...

okay, I guess. (:

Mm, stressed out a lot here and there, before and during camp, but it was still a very enjoyable process of torturing ourselves (aka sleeping at unearthly hours and waking up less than 5 hours later). But we all enjoyed it anyway. :D

Rotted around, went to KL to shop~ then came back to chiong homework.

And that was my 2010.

So... Goals accomplished:
- Contribute more to NYGG (counting the hours I spend on this~~ )

O:

And I didn't accomplish the other goals!! D:
In fact, I think it got worse.

Mainly, improving my languages, living healthier, contribute to PSL more, spend more time with family, be happier.

Oh well. NEW GOALS FOR 2011!

1. STILL Improve languages! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME PASS CHI AND JAP O LVLS.
2. STILL Spend more time with family.
3. STILL Live healthily.
4. STILL Be happy. (This is SOMEWHAT okay luh)
5. Manage my time/commitments/academics properly.
6. Feel better about myself (?) I need more sleeeeeeep to think better. -___-

That's about it I think... Mostly the same?

Anyway, it will be left like this until I can think more clearly.

11.58 is a bad time to still be blogging on the first day of school.

sidenote:
JIE JIE IS BACK! :D :D :D :D :D

2010-12-28T16:54:00.002+08:00

irritatingggggggg

absolutely hate cleaning up people's mess

and let them be creditted.

gah.

i wish i could do more for myself. -___-

void

2010-12-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

I probably should be thinking more than I currently am

----proven by my lack of collective thoughts. T_T

Will go read more and gain more... insights.

On stuff around me.

2010-12-06T23:09:00.001+08:00

4 days 3 nights,

infinity 1/0!
.
.
.

i'll be back xD

2010-12-05T23:45:00.001+08:00

HELP~~

Drowning in worry...

2010-12-04T22:45:00.001+08:00

I love this quote, totally suitable now:

"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralising."

recharged?

2010-12-02T19:55:00.003+08:00

I seem to have nothing to say...

I just want to sleep ^^

And then go fetch Anson from airport! (at midnight O: and then take all my presents hehehe^^)

Then go get that homemakers badge! (though I think I will not be able to sewwwww)

Aigoo~ muscle aching already. I need to exercise more... (honestly still think aigoo is an ahjumma word)

CHIONG ALL THE WAY~~~

infinity1/0!

2010-11-07T01:12:00.003+08:00

Probably the last post before I leave for Beijing, but sadly it's not a really happy/excited post.

Still have a ton of things that are undone which I have to finish before I leave...

Design graduation magazine pages because no one seems to have photoshop and everyone claims that they suck in photoshop. Eh, I'm not good at it too, in fact, I'm feeling very fail now because of how it looks. D: HOW TO MAKE IT PRETTY! D: I hope it'll turn out decent when I'm done with it. And I don't really think anyone can edit it because they don't have photoshop. Which means I have to make it pretty!!! I will try my best, but I have no sense of artistic direction at all. T_T

Haven't memorised the script for the performance in Beijing! And I'm the main character. T_T Have this ~~really~~ quite long line which is in CHINESE. *faints in horror* I think I'm supposed to say it quite fast.

And most importantly, I HAVEN'T FINISHED PACKING! D: Am totally dead.

GAHHH. Super angry/irritated. I think _______ should really try to make herself more useful instead of doing all the meaningless/useless/childish things. For example not wait for me to remind her about everything, and trying to find a solution instead of just asking me back what to do. T_T

Seriously, stop being so indifferent and irresponsible.

Sometimes I think I don't want to work with you at all. It's really too difficult.

2010-11-02T23:57:00.001+08:00

maybe when i'm more sane i'll post my thoughts on farewell in a more coherent manner.

farewell

2010-11-02T23:11:00.004+08:00

Honestly, it wasn't as nice/perfect as I hoped for it to be. But then again things don't always turn out the way you planned it.

3 farewells already, and I haven't shed any tears yet! I must be devoid of emotions. :3 Aye, not that I'm not sad, just that its kind of hard... to cry and tell people that you're sad that they're leaving.

Okay, shall start from chronological order because it'll be nonsensical if I don't.

Was really really really nervous for today (soon to be tomorrow), couldn't sleep last night. Worried about EVERYTHING that can possibly go wrong... T_T Had the bottomless pit feeling again during GCP briefing...

Chiong to conference room to decorate; cranes kept dropping + tables and chairs were suddenly super heavyy. Time checked like a thousand times because I was so scared that we would be late.

Went down, and didn't know what to do. Bleh, fail. T_T

Handover was surprisingly okay because it wasn't that hot! :D

Rush up to conference room again, patrol corner, and gave out gifts (with cherie dragging me along .___. ) Then CAKE! (which was pretty :DDDD )

Waddled in and out of the room, and didn't know what to do again! D:

After some timee... performances started! (aye and was feeling all awkward again)

Keep feeling awkward in between because I didn't know what to do... but lucky Melissa and Yee Khoon were very high! If not I would probably have been hanging my head down throughout... in awkwardness.

ALMOST wanted to cut down the performance time, since we started the performances at 6 D: But then the performances were not very long either, so finished before 7. (:

Packing up took really long because of photo taking + crying + giving presents + hugging etc. After almost and hour, managed to pack everything (well, most) but not put them back. T_T

Super tired. Lucky for cars if not I would be sleeping on the bus and missing my stop. Came home, fell asleep and woke up 2 or 3 hours later. SUPER STICKY. Bathed, and now blogging and eating cup noodles while drinking cordial! xD

Mm, super mad rush today, so am really really tired. Tomorrow is beach cleaning! And dramafest encore night. I think I will be exhausted .____.

Okay, and lastly in a feeble attempt to write some heartfelt words (to all the sec 4s in general) that I will never say out loud even if you point a gun to my head:

Thank you Sec 4s for teaching us EVERYTHING you know for the past 3 years! You all have been the people that we know for the longest time up till now~ From when we were innocent (?) little Sec 1s all the way until now! Remembers camp being really really fun except I didn't talk much :3 Everyone seems to tell me I'm too quiet year after year, in which I am probably when I'm being/feeling very awkward. :D Thank you for all your encouragement and advices! Thanks you for taking care of us! Regret being so distant/not open because we are supposed to have spent the most time together! O: As much as y'all have watched us "grown up" we have seen y'all too~ From Sec 2s when we had camp together and then until nowwww. And we happily just followed what y'all did when it was our turn. (: Thank you for everything that you have done for us, and sorry for anything that we have done wrong or not very well. Hope y'all enjoyed your farewell/the farewell performances .__.

Anyway, just really really really really really really THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!

and now it's just us. no more da jie jies to take care of us D:

WHAT AM I SAYING O:

AYE THIS IS SO AWKWARD.

okay, that's it. I will keep the rest to myself.
This is HARD TO SAY. T_T

tomorrow

2010-11-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

Am currently still in the midst of freaking out for tomorrow, because I can always count on expecting the unexpected. I don't really know what I'm supposed to do now... Because no matter how much I can prepare beforehand, things won't go exactly according to plan.

Have super strong winds here, and there's this howling sound. T_T it's FREAAAAAKY. Maybe its the one-day-late halloween effect thing that was supposed to happen yesterday. D: It's giving me the creeps, and I'm already scared to begin with.

A lot of things to bring tomorrow, worried that I might forget something... so I've written a list but then I still think I'm missing something...

Have decided that although reading things on blogs and twitter (yes, surprising) is very entertaining when I'm bored (depending on whose one luh), it is a very dangerous place~ Seen too many things which were probably not meant to be seen by me. Is the reason why I decided not to blog about certain things. :D Have learnt it the hard way~ Hopefully we can clear this soon. It's quite irritating? / annoying? / very much hurtful and inconsiderate (this one is definitely trueee).

Okay, going to pack up and help around.

TOMORROW'S GOING TO BE A BETTER DAY (:

dramafest 2010 part a

2010-10-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

Had lots of fun watching Dramafest 2010 Session A!
Nostalgia!~
Miss having 212 drama rehearsals and our epic mass nap time before the show! D:
Miss acting and directing the play! D:
Miss the pizzas and the You're Beautiful video sessions! D:
Miss the talk-for-super-long gossip sessions! D:
Miss the silky pjs and bedsheets! D:

Talked about a lot of things today, and thought about a lot too.

Seems like I have a lot of ideals which current reality is quite far from. Hopefully they can be realised soon, with the help of everyone. (: I want to make it work :D

Quick post, will update more on Dramafest tomorrow night. (:

LOVE TALKING SESSIONS :D

oh yes, and the LOVE LINE between the 2 little "boys" was so cuuuuuteee! xD
Congrats to those who made it to encore night!

2010-10-25T22:17:00.002+08:00

I wonder if I'm lucky or unlucky to have come across it.

On one hand I get to know what they are thinking, on the other I'm just making myself feel D:(

Oh well, sometimes social networking sites just kill.

exams

2010-10-06T18:56:00.002+08:00

heh, sneaking a post during exam period! :D

had a feeling of doom this morning when I woke up -- exams are officially starting. AND WITH CHINESE AT THAT. is that bad or bad?

and well the feeling was not for nothing. the papers were HORRIBLE! and yes, I checked who set it. the same for both papers. GOSH I have no idea what a bao guan was! I think my content will be really really really low because I totally wrote to the wrong person! -___- And my suggestions for zuo wen were to generalised. AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND THE LIAN HUA PASSAGE.

AM DEAD. T_T

tomorrow's another hellish day for my poor hand and arm. D: LA paper 1 -- compo and unseen with IH -- 5 sbq + essay.

.______________.

oh well, at least its in ENGLISH...?

twomoredays and we're close to liberation.

MATH AND SCIENCES FTW :D :D :D

it'll be over SO SOON.

change

2010-09-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

As a person, if you treated me like that, I would have no qualms in ending our friendship.
But as a good friend, I just really hope this whole thing will blow over soon.
Especially when its between both my good friends.

Sometimes I really want to ask what happened to you. Why you became who you are now. But it is really obvious, and yet really hard to understand at the same time. Because it it such an extreme change. And yet, you seem oblivious to it. I should think so, no one really thinks they are changing when they are...

To be honest, (and I think I told you before anyway) I didn't really liked your friends. Maybe they just weren't the kind of people I would mix with. It felt really weird because it never really crossed my mind that you were the kind that mixed with people of their personality.

Sometimes I really want to push all the blame on them; why they influenced you to become like them. But then it really isn' their fault, it it? They didn't force you to befriend them, nor did they force you to be like that.

Does it boil down to personal choice?

Should I believe that you changed because you wanted to change?

Whatever the case, I'm really really worried. This change thing -- its just too big to accept. But yet I have no idea how to approach you and tell you. Am afraid that you might just not accept it.

GAHHH.

This is confusing. JUST GET OVER IT SOON, PLEASE.

2010-09-28T21:24:00.001+08:00

Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing. ~Harriet Braiker

jap oral #3

2010-09-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

Am still in total shock.

My oral is only supposed to start now, but I'm already at home, bathed, and using the computer now. T_T

I FINISHED MY ORAL ONE HOUR BEFORE IT WAS SUPPOSED TO EVEN START.

Talk about screwed timing.

Didn't even know I was supposed to go in next. It was more like whoever is there then just go in and do first.

T_T

There was no time to even think. Was reading the passage for the second time when I was called to go read already!!

I'm quite prepared for like... a 5 or something.

BLEH. Other people got Aoi sensei. D:

Oh well. It's OVER.

2010-09-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

i think i should stop worrying... especially when i'm the only one who seems to be making a big fuss out of it...

maybe she shouldn't have talked about it. save some tears for the after-party eh?

its such a conflicting thought. i know that the world doesnt revolve around it, but yet, its just of too much significance in our insignificant lives that it blocks our so called "worldly perspective".

but on another hand, this could be my big break.

oh well. we'll see how things go.

and yes, i totally understand that whoever reading this won't make sense of it.

2010-09-16T20:30:00.002+08:00

CANNOT STAND PEOPLE WHO MIA, THEN TURN UP AND START BOSSING PEOPLE AROUND. SERIOUSLY, GAD.

2010-09-15T20:36:00.001+08:00

woah, everyone seems to be very emotional now... O:

2010-09-13T19:57:00.002+08:00

I wonder if making known our displeasures would be good or bad.

Imagine if everyone knew that everyone else was not happy about what they are doing.

Imagine if no one knows that everyone else was not happy about what they are doing.

Very hard to discern which is better right? T_T

Oh well. Human nature is hard comprehend...
We just can't seem to please everyone...

2010-09-12T20:11:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder if its that hard to meet expectations?

maybe we should all stop giving ourselves excuses.

gosh, i can't believe i still go bloghop when i have a million things to do T_T

2010-09-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

don't be too quick to judge.
just wait till the storms come.

2010-09-05T15:48:00.002+08:00

stop abusing the fact that you know my number!!!! D:

i am not your personal assistant to help you remember everything.

and if you're asking for a favour, BE POLITE. that's the least you could do. -__-

2010-09-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

AM REALLY TIRED! D:

though I'm not even sure what I have been doing that's making me so tired D:

probably tired of dealing with people.

especially since we're on different frequencies.

anyway, i still can't help but think they are _______.

oh well. we're all different.

blessed (:

2010-09-02T17:12:00.003+08:00

Something that I think I have that many don't, and which I am happy for:

I know where I want to be, I know where I am going, I know how to get there. (or at least I have a ~~map~~ GPS of some sort)

Books about sociology and related topics are really interesting! Seemingly incredible how they make you feel so fortunate in an instant. :D When what they actually do is just to help you realise that you have many many many things!

Maybe we need more mirrors in our lives -- we need to reflect more often... and then maybe we could reach enlightenment! NIRVANA, anyone? xD

Am really starting to feel the importance in a lot of things that I deemed useless before...

One of which is EOYs. (:

I'm very determined to study hard and do well!

I suddenly feel a burst of optimism! :D

WE CAN DO THIS!

2010-09-01T19:59:00.001+08:00

only you can be so nonchalant about it.
sometimes i wish people can be more involved.

for our dear teachers

2010-09-01T16:37:00.002+08:00

The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires. ~William Arthur Ward

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
Thank you to all the teachers that have taught me for all these years!

It feels good to visit all the teachers year after year~ Though most of the times it gets somewhat awkward, but then its so nice being able to tell your teachers that you're not failing the subjects that they used to teach us xD

We should all meet up more often :D

2010-08-29T17:47:00.001+08:00

BEING SICK SUCKS D:

Super bad headache + fever whole of yesterday! D:
At least its not that bad today.

but then...

STOMACHACHE D:

BLEHHHH.

breather

2010-08-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

Hmm, have been rather good this week :D
Been sleeping before 1, and getting ~~enough~~ sufficient rest to get me through the day...
Been finishing my homework, and doing a lot of things that make me feel like I'm accomplished.

Busy week due to _____, but it is fun to do so its not hard. :D Hee, I love working with y'all! Things get completed quickly~ And not like when someone does nothing and claims all the credit in the end -_____- I seem to have too much affinity with irresponsible people like that recently.

Speaking about irresponsible, I really cannot tahan the way ____ does things. It irritates me that she doesn't care about it when its affecting all of us.

It just happens to be the times when you can't not-contribute because you will be marked forever as "someone who doesn't do work" and there you are being outcasted in a second -- The importance of being a "team player". Or at least someone who does work!!

Oh yes and I don't want to remember that I got back my papers today.

At least term 3 is drawing to a close soon, and then we will all be chionging for EOYs, and the year will end pretty soon...

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

2010-08-22T22:11:00.001+08:00

finally feeling the sense of accomplishment after finishing everything that i should be finishing today :D

2010-08-22T15:48:00.001+08:00

Just because you didn't see what I did doesn't mean I didn't do it.

2010-08-22T01:32:00.001+08:00

When everything seems to be going wrong, SLEEP, and all will be fine. :D

paranoid.

2010-08-19T15:51:00.003+08:00

I think... that I'm very paranoid. -__-
And that's definitely a bad thing.

I must constantly remind myself of the previous post.

I WILL TRUST PEOPLE.

trust

2010-08-18T01:03:00.004+08:00

There are some people in your life, that you can never choose not to trust. It's almost as though it is being forced upon you. You hate being suppressed like that. But choosing to break free and lose your trust takes away the very root of your being.

And it is way too difficult to live like that.

Maybe sometimes, we need to learn to be more trusting, and stop being suspicious of every minute thing. There's no point in trying to decipher everyone's thoughts, because of the very fact that it is not possible. We were made to not be able to do so for a reason. And I believe that it is for the good of us.

It's meaningless now for me to think about how disappointed I would be if someone turns out to be something that I didn't wish for.

I need to stop speculating.

I need to learn how to trust.

2010-08-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

staying awake till 2 in the morning every day for the past 3 days and until 5 for the weekends is totally driving me crazy...

and i worry for my spine. its looks like its in a bad condition from the xrays. -__-

i learn that i should never owe teachers work because its freaky when they come after you. or maybe, its just my guilty conscience. -_-

omgah, super incoherent nowwwww. D:

i want to rant.

I WILL FINISH MY WORK BY TONIGHT I DON'T CARE.

okay bye.

survivor

2010-08-16T22:18:00.003+08:00

I found my voice!
Voice as in writing voice luh duh. I didn't lose my voice.

I think... politics is scary.
It seems as though everything we stood for is totally twisted now. And all the people we trusted turned their backs on us. When everyone should be supporting each other, we're all pulling apart.

Sometimes I wished that it could stay like it was a year ago. D:

And we all realise how delusional we were then. All just superficial.

It's just like survivor.

It's going to be a blindsight.

working

2010-08-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

It feels as if it has been a long time since I last did real WORK.
And its a really strange feeling, doing work after being stone for such a long time.

I miss the feeling of being very accomplished after a whole day of finishing things. And yet it seems really different when I'm not working with people I have always been working with. Cannot seem to grasp what everyone is thinking (and doing!) at the same time. And well its kind of driving me up the wall. -__- Though some people have been really nice and helping out a lot. :D

Even though its not really my obligation to finish up what you haven't been doing, its still like my project. SO I WILL BEAR WITH IT. For the sake of myself .__.

I realised that my procrastination has led the this little pile of work for me to do. I need to finish zuowen, my powerpoint for shanghai trip, memorise jap script... and prepare for all the pracs for this week. Utter fail. At least IH SIA is kind of moving. Well, it has been. Now its stagnant. But we have to finish it tonight anyway.

Had the best week in the year, with national day hols, PARADE! :D, and funfair. Hmm I think parade was the highlight. It's the time when all your efforts finally pays off! :D Haha, I think it was very meaningful. First parade as FCs? xD

Anyhow, weekends were super unproductive again. -___- Until now that is.

Can't wait to get all geared up again for whatever's to come!

2010-08-12T21:52:00.001+08:00

We can and we will pull it off perfectly tomorrow. (:

2010-08-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

Hee, it's been a long time since I last updated...

Finally realised why posting regularly is such a difficult task.

BT2 is over! And here comes the long weekend! :D

Have loads of things to do, but its so satisfying that the blocks are over~

Cross country at MacRitche(?) yesterday. Did duty = stand at the finish line and cheer for everyone! And now my voice is T.T

Bugis with JiaChee and chagiya! xD Walked until my legs are crippled. Went to almost every accessory shop! HAHA couple rings ftw! xD I hope mine doesn't drop :3

Been watching anime like no other recently.__.
Can't wait for new dramas!! But then it'll be in SEPTEMBER. Which means EOYS approaching! -___- And no I'm not going to be mugging so soon. YET.

Bleh, shall go watch drama~ and enjoy the time I have now before its gone~

2010-08-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

ahh, its coming to an end.

tomorrow is liberation!

(haha, not like i was hardcore mugging or anything anyway xD )

BUT STILL :D

totally regret signing up for the sjpo thing -___-
now i can't go home even after chem paper.
and its an early day summore leh! 8.45! T_T

it feels like its over~

2010-07-31T10:14:00.000+08:00

i dont know what i'm feeling now...

disappointed maybe?

CNBLUEEE~~

2010-07-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

AM SO GOING!

2010-07-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

2010 LISTEN TO THE CNBLUE IN SINGAPORE
21 August 2010.

I WILL GO. I DON'T CARE.

2010-07-20T19:49:00.000+08:00

I totally understand why blogs are left to rot when the school term starts and not because there's nothing to write about.

2010-07-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hmm so many things to settle before I leave for Shanghai!

There's this weird feeling in me now... Excited + sad + I-don't-know-what-feeling. It's going to be my first time going overseas without family members! (Yes, I know I'm super lag but YES.) And well first time to China also...

Am kinda freaked out for the thesis presentation thing. I will need to practice a lot a lot! (And then I'll use it for LA speech! HAHA SO INGENIOUS RIGHT!) But IT WILL BE FINE. Am so not going to embarrass myself in front of a whole auditorium of people!

BUT BUT BUT! I get to go EXPO! Must go Korea Pavilion! :D And all the forums and all and the flight! So going to exploit the free flow of coke and spam music/movies and everything on the plane. xD (Haha! Kiasu Auntie in action!)

AND I AM SUPER SAD ALSO.

Missing a lot of things! First FDP prac and I'm not there D: But I promise I'll call you kay! :D And don't cry hor! Later everyone see then will be embarrassing one xD

and since you call me yeobo i'll call you chagi xD

자기아널사랑해! 나는 많은 당신을 그리워!

Oh yes and SPAIN WILL WIN :D

Haha okay, I shall take lots of pictures and buy stuff for everyone :D BYE BYE!

WILL MISS YOU ALL! (even though its only one week)

disappointed

2010-07-06T23:41:00.003+08:00

We're in a mess now, and I wonder how we are going to get out of this soon.

I think there is something fundamentally wrong with us -- communication.

Someway somehow, we always self destruct what we have painstakingly built up because of misunderstandings. And we end up wondering if what we had in the beginning was too weak.

I guess so. Why else would there be misunderstandings if we all trusted one another wholeheartedly?

And it really is ironic that we realise that all of us have been wearing masks since the very beginning. Maybe this is part of everyone's personal secrets?

To say what people want to hear, but not doing what we say.

I think that is all too familiar. We do that way too much.

Disappointed. I thought very very very much more of what we all had. Perhaps this was to tell us not to see things so superficially. And yes, I will start to believe what I have always believed in and not believe what I have been told. Everyone just happens to prove me wrong after that.

It's saddening. It's childish. It's irritating.

And the worse thing?

I don't have the slightest idea on what I'm supposed to do now.

We're totally segregated now.
./edit. I realised my post on the 13th June is suddenly very relevant to current situations! O:

brownies

2010-07-05T23:39:00.003+08:00

I have never been so fail at baking before! D:

Super disappointed in all the brownies today...

Brownie goo, charcoal brownie, bitter brownie, and sugar brownie and the last mix everything together brownie aka the "special flavour" brownie. D:

Somehow even though the brownie goo was horribly disgusting, it seemed to appetising after the batch of charcoal brownies came out.

I think I won't eat brownies for at least a month. Can't promise a year or more because I'll probably be too tempted. xD

Hm one more TAP, (recording can't be done cos I don't have a mic hurray for my lousy computer!) and then Trigo 1 which I have absolutely no idea how to do. -___-

JIAYOU :D

2010-07-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

I will thank the heavens if I can finish all the things on my to do list by... THIS WEEK. :D

rambles

2010-07-04T19:28:00.006+08:00

Oh LOL, I think I manage to find people's blogs very easily when I'm sian. xD Even if they moved and never told me .____.

Aye, been out a lot these few days... it's making me want to put a lot of things on my wish list! But I shall not have one. Having it means not being content. D: And its as though I'm asking people to buy those for me. Which is bad. I will save enough money to buy them all myself. :D

Heritage trail yesterday was oddly epic. Hmm, only remember being very flustered over cutting up the info thing and wishing that I have more time to listen to my music. But the most memorable part was the eating after that! :D Mm, HEAVEN! :D Eating is heaven. :D *faints in delight*

But it burned out my wallet! I'm left with half of what I started with and its only the 4th day of the month. D: HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE NOW? D: Thank god I'm going away for a week...

Bleh bleh, we haven't printed our posters yet and we're already one week away! Hopefully printing doesn't take that long and then I will just pack and fly away. And don't think of coming back because that means homework and well, other work, but nonetheless still work.

Okay, I'm absolutely incoherent now. I think its the hunger. I swear I feel my stomach acids eating away my stomach.

Oh and luckily we have a day off tomorrow! Have been super tired ever since school reopened.

-updating to do list-

Oh gosh. I realise I have many things to do! D: Work is piling like nobody's business. -__-

Hee! I can't wait for CCA! :D
Planning for it makes me want to more excited about it! (:

Saturdays are bliss. :D
Every episode gets better than the last. ^^

Hmm okay should end with some nice happy picture. My blog is way too wordy. D:

While waiting for our camera to snap the shot in the dark staircase landing...

Sometime last year... Nyssa's birthday? I think so... Pardon me if I'm wrong, I'm quite senile about dates... Was it after Heritage Trail?

And isn't this MOTIVATIONAL! Haha! TDP'10! Haven't forgotten yet. :D

Okay, dinner. To ease my starving stomach. :D

depressing

2010-07-02T23:20:00.002+08:00

Why is this situation so depressing... (even when I already had my ice cream party) D:

I don't really know what I'm supposed to do now, everything's just really awkward. Gah, it just feels very bad to know that my existence makes things worse. Just makes me feel like vanishing into thin air now...

I don't know what to say, and I probably shouldn't too. If I make things worse then I'll just hate myself even more.

Aye, this whole thing is starting to lose its meaning already.

What should I do? What do you want me to do?

tomorrow

2010-07-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is such a controversial day... I can't make up my mind to like it or hate it.

Firstly there's the "Be Yourself" thing. It's a good initiative I guess, but its kind of sian when its week one and everyone's burning out like nobody's business.

Then there's FC selections. LOL I don't really know what to say about this. Am trying to keep neutral about it. I will try my best not to embarrass myself. So in case I do, please just pretend you didn't know about it. Greatly appreciated. (:

Hmm, I hate to be sleeping way past the time I set for myself these days -- 10pm. It's really hard but it sucks when I tell myself that I will sleep by 10 and I sleep at 12. I'm just not determined enough. Or maybe, I could just give up on homework...

Okay, shall go pack bag now! I shall make it nice and light for tomorrow! (:

JIAYOU FLYING CHICKENS :D
ILY! :D

sneaking little updates

2010-06-29T22:37:00.002+08:00

not much time for a full essay like update... so here goes

First 2 days of school can be summarised into one word: TIRED.
Am still trying hard to adjust back to school routine, but then its really hard after a month of holidays... D:

Lessons haven't really picked up pace yet, so its still quite slack-ish, though homework is piling in loads! Have been trying to clear as much as possible so that I can focus on other things and GO SLEEP MORE. Super tired during lessons + sleeping during lessons are BAD, and not to mention embarrassing when the teacher asks you to wake up. -___-

Last pioneer training today, I think I just need to STAY CALM because when I lose it everything goes crazy.

And JAP IS FAIL. Was trying to do the online quizes and homework and I have no idea what it is talking about. At least I'm skipping CA4. :D HOORAY. Kind of gave up on this already.

SIAs! I want to conquer them all! I must!

Very excited over Shanghai trip now that its coming soon. And I need to prep and prac my thesis presentation and the project presentation!!!! D: D:

kays, shall go off to finish more things to make more time.

byeee

2010-06-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

생일축하합니다혀~언!
생일축하합니다 민혁오빠!

2010-06-24T02:08:00.001+08:00

Too many things to worry about!

Cannot handle all at once, one at a time please~

As I said, I'll get to it as I come to it.

2010-06-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

Aye some people just make me feel like I don't want to know them.

Sometimes I think inferior complex does a lot of damage to people.

I am very offended.

But to be rational, insecure people say negative things, so I shouldn't let it affect me.

Anyway, going to school tomorrow, shall go sleep now. (:

And the nice Brazilian dinner that was super filling and made me scared of meat. Let's not eat meat tomorrow shall we? :D

2010-06-22T00:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANSON! (See you're first xD )

생일축하합니다
생일축하합니다
사랑하늘요옹~오빠
생일축하합니다
Happy Birthday Yo~ong oppa!

yongseo couple! (:

2010-06-21T21:53:00.001+08:00

MUST WATCH THIS!^^
THIS IS SO CORNY BUT CUTE AT THE SAME TIME~~~

street sales

2010-06-15T22:10:00.003+08:00

Woah, I must say that walking for 3 hours hurt my legs more than standing for 4 hours!

Had street sales today and I realised how rude Singaporeans are. Makes me wonder how I ever got that illusion that Singaporeans were all nice and friendly. -______-

Got dao-ed by super a lot of people. I think I'm immune to people ignoring me and talking to myself already. Grr seriously, its not like we're forcing them to donate. If you don't want to donate so be it lorh, but does it take that much effort to acknowledge the person talking to you! D: So rude!

And to those people who don't donate and still scold volunteers maybe you should think why there is even a need for street sales. Because people like you don't donate regularly so the organisations need to do this. -__________- Common sense much?

But I'm really happy that there are actually some nice beings among all the meanies. The nice person who donated to us and the person behind, and the nice person who donated $10! And the other nice people who all donated. :D

Hm kay. I'm dead beat.
BYEEEEE

2010-06-14T00:42:00.001+08:00

Why does Yonghwa look so pissed and tired in every single performance now... D:

Gah stupid FNC.

2010-06-13T16:47:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm officially riled up.

It's not like I like Taemin of whatever. No one should have been in that position at all. But seriously, those people have nothing better to do.

If what they're getting out of this is the feeling that they're actually more superior than a celebrity then I conclude they have no lives. For goodness sake, its not like he was arrogant and all about being a celeb. It's because they themselves have already convinced themselves that he is more superior (in what ever way) than them that they feel the need to bully him to make themselves feel like they're not just some lowdown idiots who are absolutely insecure.

And for goodness sake, what they're doing is so immature. Even kindergarten kids don't do these kind of things. If they're not already ashamed of themselves I have nothing better to say. They really need to grow up and realise that bullying others because they're insecure isn't going to make others have a better impression of them. It's just going to ruin their image/reputation, and then their self-esteem is going to self destruct. It's a vicious cycle. Stupid much?

Ahh whatever. They're just being jealous. If they would invest all their time and energy stalking and bullying people on studying maybe they could just do better in life and not end up as some loser. -__________-

People are getting weirder.

2010-06-12T20:41:00.001+08:00

First time being to anxious to watch soccer .____.

YEAH GO S.KOREA!! :D

WHOOO PARK JI SUNG SCORED!

Wonder if any 212ers watching too~~

2010-06-12T14:03:00.000+08:00

Damn. Just when I thought I would go down to pick some twigs, it rains heavily. D: